Carpet and Constructive Conversion

We went with the one on top. Old carpet used to be the lighter one on bottom. Looks like heck after 5 years {four kids and two cats} ... Hello home buyers! $$$

The Bee family is doing an about-face. Change is synonymous with a few key words that leave deep images in your mind. Words like “born again”, “growth”, “reconstruction”, “reformation”, “regeneration”, “resolution”, “transfiguration”, “remodeling”, “turning around”. I’m pretty sure the sort of change absorbing us over the next few years will be heavy on the remodeling side.

On the other hand, the opposite of change is idleness and sameness. Isn’t the definition of CRAZY: doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results?

Somewhere in the span of the past year or two, a change began to take place in my heart. Maybe it wasn’t really my heart, but my spirit (the deep part of your mind that knows things before you do). I started to feel like a renter in my home… and yet I knew it wasn’t the “moving bug” because I really didn’t want to move. In fact, I love my house, my town, and my friends here. I knew it was something deeper; God was putting it on my heart that a change was coming.

I swallowed it back for a long time. I couldn’t imagine moving and uprooting the kids again. We have moved about 18 times in our 20 years, and spent nearly five in this place. I wasn’t ready for the nomadic life again. Especially not with two toddlers in tow.

Doors were closing, doors were opening… always so many choices to make. We are still praying every day we are making wise ones; that we are in line with His will for our family.

In the short, we have decided to sell our home. But the selling part is up to Him. With the economic downturn, we are competing with foreclosures selling for nearly what we owe. While our home might be more appealing, it isn’t a good feeling to know you are asking ten thousand more than the house next door for the same amount of square footage. It is painful spending nearly four thousand for carpet that won’t get recouped in a sale. It will hurt to have to pay off carpet on a Lowe’s credit card for another family… but that’s beside the point.

It also isn’t easy imagining living in a tiny little home that needs more attention and repair than we can hope to accomplish in half a decade. The six of us, and my sweet mama – with one working bathroom. A kitchen the size of my smallest bathroom or less.

Sometimes God calls us to let go of our ‘riches’ and take hold of our crosses, hoisting them up and bracing for the uphill walk towards the light.

#Time standing still- my mama in my grandma's tiny kitchen... #smallspaces #photoadayjune

There will be a lot of sweat and tears in our near future. But believe me, when I tell you, there will also be peace.

I heard a story once that a preacher told about “the real meaning of peace”. Here’s a version of it from the internet:

There once was a king who offered a prize to the artist who would paint the best picture of peace. Many artists tried. The king looked at all the pictures. But there were only two he really liked, and he had to choose between them.

One picture was of a calm lake. The lake was a perfect mirror for peaceful towering mountains all around it. Overhead was a blue sky with fluffy white clouds. All who saw this picture thought that it was a perfect picture of peace.

The other picture had mountains, too. But these were rugged and bare. Above was an angry sky, from which rain fell and in which lightning played. Down the side of the mountain tumbled a foaming waterfall. This did not look peaceful at all.

But when the king looked closely, he saw behind the waterfall a tiny bush growing in a crack in the rock. In the bush a mother bird had built her nest. There, in the midst of the rush of angry water, sat the mother bird on her nest – in perfect peace.

Which picture do you think won the prize? The king chose the second picture. Do you know why?

“Because,” explained the king, “peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. Peace means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart. That is the real meaning of peace.”

Now the Dali Lama might tell you that you should try to create or develop this inner peace – to seek to chose happiness as your goal in life no matter your circumstance. I know this to be an unattainable goal.

This peace comes from Christ – for in Him I can do all things as He strengthens me. I can give up a 2400 square foot new home to live in a two bedroom house that my grandfather pieced together with his own hands. I can walk in certainty that when I loosen my grip on this trinket and give it to God, He will bless me. May my children after me see that I walk by faith and not sight.

If this ‘change’ is from the Lord, it will all work out in the end. I’m putting it in His hands. I’m preparing for a miracle (and a lot more scorpion sightings). I’m putting in the new carpet based on the sale I believe will come – even though our house is priced higher, the market is down, the numbers don’t add up, the future seems unsettling…

And I’m watching for Him to show up.

Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.

 

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Comments

  1. says

    Heather,
    Don’t you just love living this crazy life of hearing God and following Him? He certainly leads us down some crazy paths in life, but it’s always sweeter on the other side:)
    We did exactly what you’re about to do – 8 years ago. We had a brand new, 3 bedroom, brick home, in a neighborhood. We had lived there for 5 years when we decided to buy my husband’s grandparents home (70 year old home) and refurbish it. We moved in with my in-laws (on the same land) for 9 long months (!!) while we tore the insides down to the studs and built it back up. We insulated, put in central air and heat, new sheet rock, everything you can imagine. But, we had a vision of raising our boys on some land, with horses, and room, and we did it!
    It’s not been easy – but definitely worth it.

    Life with the Lord is an adventure, isn’t it?

    Can’t wait to read what He does with your move.

    Blessings:)
    Debbie

    • Heather says

      That sounds exactly like what we were hoping to do… but we have so much debt to pay off first before we can make it happen, that we have decided to move a little slower and make things less stressful on my mom (and husband) by having our own space. It actually works out financially better this way, too… and will make things progress faster than they could have if we moved in with mom. Still praying through things… and the first step will be selling this house.

  2. says

    Whoa! Didn’t see that one coming. There’s a house down the road from me for sale! (Of course, they handed it back over to the bank and stripped it…and it’s small but on the plus side…it’s down the road from me!)

  3. Jeri says

    Ok, Heather, explain this to me. Didn’t you just move out by me, actually a little farther out? I get you. I get it. And you’re right, putting a house on the market right now feels crazy! We think about it often.
    I can completely understand the unsettling part you feel. We’ve lived in our house that we built for 7 years. We’ve added 5 children since we’ve lived here. It doesn’t feel like home. It could be that we’ve had plans to build another house next to it from the very beginning? But our hearts are in VA. None of our friends or family can understand that. We’re tired of the heat, of the allergies, of the asthma. We’ve lived here our entire lives and we want to gooooo. The last 2 years we’ve been ready. We’ve even had our house on the market for 9 months while we had an offer on a house in VA. That unsettling feeling. Sometimes I just want to toss it all out and just start over. there. not here. So maybe you should come buy our house. :o)

    • Heather says

      Where is your house? Email me if you decide to sell it. However, we are not sure we’ll be able to move very far from where we are now. The city bus and train system saves hundreds of dollars in gas that we are not sure we can afford if we go too far out. Seems we’ll save more money to build and repair my mom’s home and pay off debt if we make gas savings a priority. I am just flabbergasted that the current administration thinks our economy is “doing ok” – when the cost of all goods and services has risen because of the gas spike. When we got married – and even ten years ago – we could go to the grocery store four times a week and not even think about clipping a coupon. Now, we fill half a basket and it is over one hundred dollars! Inflation is a killer. I sure wish Ron Paul could have won the nomination and the White House. He’s the only one with any money sense on the Hill.

  4. says

    “…in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things….”
    Here is Phil. 4:13 in Context- we are really to be CONTENT, not do what we want in Christ’s strength. I don’t want to be brought low or be in hunger to learn to be CONTENT!

    Praying for His will in your decisions and that His way/path will be made clear. Lots of love and hugs in this time in the life of your family. 😉

    • Heather says

      I really do feel content. Thank you for the prayers, sweetie. We are sure that whatever happens, He is in control. My only worry is that my husband (who likes wide open and tidy spaces) will be irritable in a cramped and small house. He had a hard time relaxing in our little apartment we lived in for 2 years in Arkansas while he was in a temporary job situation. I guess we can build him a shed in the back yard – a man cave – so he can escape now and then. Ha!

  5. says

    Keep in mind that sometimes we don’t see a blessing for what it is. Or a hardship for you may be a blessing for another family, but all working in God’s will. Keep praying and hold onto the peace that passes understanding.

    • Heather says

      Yes, we are staying the course on the prayer front. For sure. We are working out budget numbers and figuring out where we’ll be going when the house finally sells. No calls yet… but I’m sure when God is ready, it will happen.

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